Emotional Charge

 

Like a mushroom, you pop up in my head
So unpredictable—like the likelihood of a needle passing through a thread
It gets my attention, the things that you do
Can I notice less of your existence too?

I do not want to reach the next stage
Future self, how did you survive this page?
As long as I don’t see you, I am fine
In the midst of us, I should draw a line

Like this, my normal self is not
How did I end up being part of this plot?
My emotions are being stirred
Unexpectedly, for you I have always cheered

I’m being attracted, like metal to a magnet
The lamp you lit up in me must be unplugged from the socket
Acting like nothing’s really happening
Is better than dwelling in the feeling

Not pretending—this is
Because the way of preventing is like this
This thing that I’m going through—I’m not really pleased
The only reason why I’m totally pissed

You have the strong ability to sense
Please do not feel my weakening defense
Sometimes I feel weird, sometimes I’m okay
This type of condition—I cannot say

I am not requesting your opinion
Yet writing about you, I decided to add an extension
I can’t find a remedy yet to this sickness
From you, in advance, I ask for forgiveness